There are some precious children that I get to interact with in Primary, two little girls in particular, who I love more than anything. I honestly couldn’t love them any more if they were my own daughters –they are so precious! Yesterday, both of these girls were in a state of needing…comfort, stability, and hugs (and as a matter of fact, that was what I needed too, so it worked out perfectly). I came home with this pain in my heart, this knowing that as much as I love them, I can’t really help them, but I CAN love them. It was in this moment that I realized that as much as I have ever hurt throughout my lifetime, pain is a sort of blessing. I learned yesterday that even though I hurt for these children, my pain doesn’t hinder my ability to love them, it enhances it! It gives me a purpose because as I focus on them and love them, I go beyond myself and I don’t feel my own pain (as much).
I can’t even begin to put into words how grateful I am for children. Anyone who knows me knows my love for children! All I have ever wanted to be is a mom, and that continues to be my goal. While that opportunity hasn’t come at this point in my life, I am and will eternally be grateful for the opportunity to serve in Primary and to be with these wonderful children.