I have so much I want to write. I start typing on my iPod while I’m on the go, but something happens every time and it either limits the number of characters I can use, it doesn’t allow me to publish, or I accidentally delete it. Then it puts me behind even more, so I procrastinate further and never really accomplish anything.
If I ever get around to backtracking, I will, but for now I’m just going to move forward. I’m also going to attempt to get over my fear of getting my thoughts and feelings out there. I feel like I may have said that at a previous time, but it is my goal to really try. I’m one of those people who think that if people know what I’m really wishing and hoping for or thinking about, things won’t turn out the way I want or expect them to.
I recently celebrated a birthday…my 25th to be exact. For the record, I LOVE being 25. I can’t explain it, but I have been looking forward to it for quite some time. The point of bringing this up is that one of the gifts I received was the CD “Women of Hope”. One song in particular has taken over my life…I love the lyrics. This morning on the way to work I seriously let it play over and over for the 20+ minutes that it takes to get to work. As you can guess from the title of my blog, I am fascinated/obsessed with dreams. Without dreams, we really have no motivation to move forward. I love good dreams, whether I’m awake or when I’m sleeping. I hold on to dreams as my beacon in the distance, encouraging me to move toward something that I want. This song is called “My Favorite Dream”. At this point I have only been able to locate the lyrics to the first verse and chorus on the internet, but I will find the rest one way or another.
I have dreams; they’re big enough to touch the sky
I launch them as the days go by
I dream them as I hold your hand
And I always try to understand
The reason that I’m in this world
I wonder as the days unfurl
And I’m running out of time to grant all the wishes that I had as a little girl
But even if I don’t cross the ocean blue or climb the tallest mountain
It isn’t as tragic as it seems
There are a million things I want to do, but only if I can be with you
And I know what forever means
And you are my favorite dream
I have so many dreams right now and I want so badly for them all to work out the way I want. I want to have a good career, I want to go back to school to become a teacher, I want to do things to help others, I want to move closer to my family; I dream about doing all of these things. But the thing I dream most of is one day, finding and marrying the man of my dreams. I don’t know who he is, where he is, or what he’s doing right now, but he honestly is my favorite dream.
I try not to talk about it too much because I don’t want to be one of those people. You know who I’m talking about…we’ve all met at least one person like this. Instead of being this person, I try to just have fun, work hard, and accomplish everything that needs to happen. I’m building my testimony of patience. I’m learning to rely on the Lord. And for these experiences, I wouldn’t trade them. So, I will continue to dream. I will dream big and work hard. I will follow the courses that lay ahead of me, and I will trust Him with my dreams.